| there was once a time when I would post here all the time.
it was pretty much a weekly thing for me.
what was that,
about two years ago?
a time when I knew very little...(not saying much for now)
and talked to so few.
I remember how I use to use this as away to get things out.
I put down what was going on.
and how I felt.
it was my pressure valve.
every time I was able to put something down I was able to release a little of the pressure that was in my life.
it was good for me.
I had so many ups and downs.
and the downs always seemed to get deeper.
but then...it never failed.
I would have my up again.
life is funny isn't it?
it knows just about how much you can take.
it'll throw so much on you.
and weigh you down so far you can barely walk.
but then. when you start to think it's to much.
when really can't go any further.
it takes it all back.
so times quickly...and some times slower than others.
I've hit another low point in my life.
it's kind of unexplainable.
and the parts that are explainable...I don't want to explain.
I'm so easy to brake right now.
I don't know what it is.
but little things seem to bother me more than they ever have.
and things that should bother me just make me...think.
and it's never a good thinking.
it is the type of thinking to where you get to a point...and you give up. either on the person...or the situation.
I hate me like this.
because I try so hard to hide it.
I act as though the only one who knows this or should know this is me.
is that wrong?
are there things in life other people shouldn't know?
is it always good to get everything out?
it's just...
I know what I want to say to you.
but I can't find the words.
and if I did...would it matter?
I hope this finds you well.
and I hope God continues to keep you safe.
be blessed and be a blessing
always
~Joshua Aaron. |
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